Merde

I am in hell. For about the last 4 days I've been in a constant state of high anxiety. No particular thoughts or fears etc, just an intense physical sensation of panic. I shake, my heart does flip-flops and I want to run, but there is nothing to run from. I cannot remain still. Foot-tapping, rocking, or doing something repetitive with my hands takes a bit of the edge off, though my only real relief has come in the form of an anti-anxiety pill. I hate to take it because it slows me way down and makes me sleep...but without it, the desire to scream and bang my head against a wall to make the sensations go away is just too strong to cope with. I have never felt so not-sane in my entire life. :-(