Charity drive - day 12

Today was pretty tough after being so active yesterday. I wanted to nap several times, but still managed to get a load of laundry done and tidy up a bit. I'm very excited about my upcoming trip, although I do have a bit of anxiety about the treatment itself, as I know it's gonna really kick my butt. My affairs are approaching some sort of order as I get ready to leave, and I will try to make a few more hats before I go. Above are the last two I made.

Donations: $50.00
Pledges: $0.70

Charity drive - day 11

Today was a good day. I went out with a friend and her husband for coffee and LOTS of chatting :) They had some awesome ideas for me regarding my fund raiser which I may try to explain later when I'm more focused. Brain is kinda 'pffft' today.
Despite constant shaking and feeling very unsteady on my feet, I managed to look presentable and stay in the conversation for the most part (I did get pretty loopy toward the end of our outing). No hats today, just too wiped out from the activity.

Charity drive - day 10

In my excitement taking care of my travel plans, I completely forgot to post yesterday. Here are the hats I finished :-)

charity drive - day 8

I'm so excited today I can hardly contain myself! I received enough funds to make my down payment at the San Diego clinic and have already booked my flights and hotel to begin treatment on August 2nd! Yay!!! I will continue my fund raiser there so I can keep making payments as I go. More hats to come!!

Donations: $50.00
Pledges: $0.70

Charity drive - day 7

Exhausted and in pain...managed to make one more hat.

Donations: $50.00
Pledges: $0.20

Charity drive - day 6

My body is struggling today. I ended up needing a nap again, despite a full night's sleep. I am also in more pain than usual. My left shoulder is sore and stiff, and both my hands throb constantly. Letting go of the frustration is the hardest part, but once I am able to do that, waiting becomes easier. Right now, I knit to stay sane for several reasons. First, it keeps me busy, and second, it is helping me reach my goal so I no longer have to feel this day in and day out. I hope that all made sense, I'm having trouble keeping a train of thought going. Anyway, thanks for reading....until tomorrow.

Charity drive - day 5

I woke feeling downright awful today after about 8 hours sleep. After breakfast I went back to bed and slept another 7 hours, which I must have needed. My nephew came over in the afternoon and we ate dinner and played board games. I had to excuse myself pretty early on as the activity just wiped me out. I did manage to finish up another hat while lying in bed and am only up to post a pic of it before crawling right back under the covers.

charity drive - day 4

I'm doing a little better today with the nausea, which I'm really grateful for. The weather was nice this morning so I took a short walk down the block. My pain levels have risen, but not to an unbearable level...just the usual ache in my hands and some intermittent sharp pains in my feet when I sit or lie down, which I think are the result of my walk...not too smart of me to wear flip flops. Live and learn!

Day 4 is going well...I finished 3 more hats! :D

Charity drive - day 3

Last night was pretty rough. I woke several times gasping for breath, and continued to have difficulty breathing for several minutes before feeling ok enough to go fall back to sleep. This morning I stumbled a lot, but am walking better now. Despite the constant feeling of wanting to throw up, I did manage to make two more hats today. Yay! I decided to crochet them to add a bit of variety :-) Here they are!

Charity drive

I'm feeling a little more stable now and have been able to be off the anti-anxiety meds for a few days. Whew! I am still very restless, but it is manageable as long as I keep my brain busy.
So, here's the scoop: I've decided to do a sort of one-woman charity drive/fund-raiser. Here's how it works.
I will knit and crochet as many baby hats as I can between now and August 10th for donation to Tucson Medical Center's maternity and NICU wards. My minimum goal is 35 hats, with a maximum of 50.
Here's how you can help: Sponsor my charity drive by pledging a quarter, a dime or whatever you like per hat that I complete to help me pay for my medical treatment. Easy Squeezy, huh? :-D you can even get your friends, neighbors and co-workers involved by printing out a pledge form that I can send you via email and have them mail or email it back to me. :)
I will be posting photos of the hats as I complete them and updating pledge amounts several times per week.
If you have any questions, or would like a pledge form and/or mailing address, feel free to contact me via email at amoneof8@yahoo.com

Thanks!!

Merde

I am in hell. For about the last 4 days I've been in a constant state of high anxiety. No particular thoughts or fears etc, just an intense physical sensation of panic. I shake, my heart does flip-flops and I want to run, but there is nothing to run from. I cannot remain still. Foot-tapping, rocking, or doing something repetitive with my hands takes a bit of the edge off, though my only real relief has come in the form of an anti-anxiety pill. I hate to take it because it slows me way down and makes me sleep...but without it, the desire to scream and bang my head against a wall to make the sensations go away is just too strong to cope with. I have never felt so not-sane in my entire life. :-(