Another day

Very weak and tired today. I tried to be up and about, but felt winded from attempting even small tasks like moving my computer chair (it's on wheels) and getting up for a glass of water. One thing I did manage to do was water my garden. All the seeds have now sprouted, and are sporting tiny pairs of green leaves. I had trouble keeping my balance once I got back inside and bumped into the door jamb a few times before reaching my bed. I rested a while, called some friends to pass the time, then sat up for a bit and did some paper crafts....I must have made about 5 pinwheels - one from a photocopy I made of a ten dollar bill - before I got dizzy and had to stop.
I faxed the final paperwork needed to process my application for food stamps and medical insurance to the state DES office. I should hear back in a few weeks.

Grrrr

I missed an appointment with my therapist today. I called her around 4am to let her know I was not able to sleep and would likely be too exhausted to make it in. That was all the notice I could give her. I hate this! I dozed off shortly after calling her and woke around 1 pm....my appointment was at noon. I was hardly able to move and it took a lot of time and effort to get my muscles awake enough to get out of bed. I called her back and requested another appointment later in the week if she had it open.
On a happier note, my watermelon seeds are sprouting! :) I stumbled out to water them today and the first has two leaves already, and the second is pushing up thru the dirt. I'm excited! :)
Also, a small black bird with a bright yellow curved beak has made our date palm it's home....and I can year tiny chirps coming from it's nest inside the tree.....likely left by a woodpecker from a previous season, as the hole is not new. My brother Mike put a ladder up for me and I slowly made my way to the nest - camera in hand. Sadly the hole was too deep for my lens to capture the baby birdies thru the narrow opening. I will have to wait a while and possibly catch them when they're large enough to start poking their heads out.

Sleep

I didn't sleep well last night, and have been even more tired today than yesterday. I woke up at 8am and could barely stand, so I went back to bed and slept 'til 2pm..a total of 12 hours. Since waking I've had a head full of cotton and been very weak.

Weaker

I am weaker yet today, my burning muscles restricting my movements even more :-(
I borrowed money from dad to take a cab two blocks from here to the DES office. I hate feeling so weak and incapable!

Blaaaah

I seem to be a little more tired each day, even though I'm really not exerting myself at all. My muscles are burning more also, especially when reaching for something or going from sitting to standing. They also burn a lot when I hold a position for more than a few seconds...like standing or holding a glass of water.

A good day

I slept 3 hours past my alarm this morning, a total of 14 hours...I guess I needed the extra sleep. I didn't do much today, just had some food and rested til my friends picked me up for game night. It was a total blast...10 people there this time. Lordy, I don't remember the last time I laughed so hard. :-D Going to bed early sounds like a good idea. All that fun just wore me plum out!

Alone

My dad left on a 3 day camping trip today with my 3 brothers. He did not bother to tell me. He took the truck, food, spices and cooking utensils etc. If I hadn't caught him on his way out to get 20 bucks in case of an emergency I would have been left without a way to get to hospital, or money for food. I am very angry that I was forgotten in his plans, and am trying to settle down so I can sleep.
Also, my baby sister did not come home from school today. I tried texting and calling her. She did not answer or return my messages. With no way to contact my dad, I rang my older sister and got my mom's phone number. She agreed to drive to baby sister's boyfriend's apartment to see if she was there and ok. She was - thank goodness! - watching a movie and didn't hear her cell phone ring. Her boyfriend is out of town so she had gone over there after school to tidy up for him. She is supposed to call me in a few minutes to let me know if she is coming home tonight or sleeping there.